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Tuesday, November 18, 2014

CYW Book Club: An Interview with Colleen Carroll Campbell

Here it is, ladies! I couldn't wait until Thursday to share it with you! I'm so inspired by Colleen's words. What a delightful gift and privilege for us at CYW to have her share them specifically for us. Please keep her and her family in prayer as we thank the Lord for helping us grow closer to Him and His saints through her book My Sisters The Saints

An Interview with Colleen Carroll Campbell
for the Catholic Young Woman Book Club, Fall 2014




Laura: Hi Colleen! Thank you so much for taking the time for this interview! Our Catholic Young Woman book club has been thriving on My Sisters The Saints these last several weeks! With all that is going on in our world today, it can be difficult to be a young Catholic woman striving to follow Christ and His Church. What would you say is the most important focus for young Catholic women today? How can we balance being in the world but not of it (both contemplative and active), influencing the culture without compromise?

Colleen: These are tough questions, ones with which I still struggle at times. The best I can do is to point you to the advice we read in Scripture, and hear echoed by the saints: “Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances” (1 Thes 5:16 – 18). I think that sums it up well. We need to maintain our joy, even when we feel outgunned in a culture hostile to our values. We need to put prayer first, since that’s where the Lord speaks to our hearts and tells us how to navigate the trickier circumstances of our lives. And we need to maintain a spirit of gratitude – for our faith, for the blessings in our lives, for the chance to be part of Christ’s redemptive work on earth, despite the suffering entailed. I don’t always do these things terribly well, but this is the ideal. And it’s worth striving for, even if we find ourselves falling short of it some (or most) of the time.

L: Can you share about your daily prayer life? What disciplines do you recommend? What helps you connect with God each day?

C: My prayer life has changed quite a bit since I had children. My favorite, most restorative time of prayer remains my Eucharistic holy hour, but what was once a daily habit is now more of a weekly one (though I often manage shorter chapel visits during the week). The same goes for my daily Mass attendance, which is now more like Sunday plus one other day per week. My husband and I continue to say our nightly rosary, a real blessing for us personally, for our family, and for our marriage. But much of life as a parent of little ones is a sprint – near-nonstop motion from the moment you wake up until the last little one goes to bed, and even after that, as you hurry to finish all the things neglected during the whirlwind of the day before your own exhaustion sets in. I find that brief snatches of prayer – morning offerings, the Angelus (when I remember) and simple, in-the-moment pleas to the Holy Spirit for guidance – are crucial to my spiritual life these days. I’m asking for God’s grace throughout the day, and with four children ages five and under at home, I need it! I think we all need it, of course. A house full of little ones can just make that more apparent.

L: A question from one of our readers, Elise: What practical advice do you have for us on how to grow in friendship with the saints?

C: Read their works. That’s the way I started my journey, and I think that’s the best entry point for most of us. As you read their life stories, told in their own voices, you realize how alike we all are, how our struggles as women and as daughters of God really are universal. Of course, I’d also advise prayer. Ask the women saints you admire to intercede to Jesus for you and your intentions, then keep your eyes open and you’ll see their responses. And ask the Holy Spirit which saints He wants you to get to know. Time and again, even since I wrote the book, I’ve found certain saints put in my path and I know it’s the Lord trying to tell me to get to know them and learn from them.

L: It was such a joy to read about the six saints in your book and see them come alive and be such timeless examples for women. Since writing My Sisters The Saints, have you developed any new friendships with saints?

C: Yes. My husband and I have been in something of a Franciscan phase for several years now (since well before the election of Pope Francis, actually). We named our third child Clara when she was born nearly three years ago, in honor of St. Clare and St. Francis of Assisi. Our fourth child, Joseph Francis, got his middle name from St. Francis of Assisi. I’m very attracted to the joy, simplicity and radical Gospel witness of these two figures. A great antidote to so much of what ails our world today.

God has also been putting a lot of pointers toward Catherine of Siena in my path lately. She’s a Doctor of the Church, a brilliant woman whose deep prayer life overflowed to make a tangible mark on the Church and the culture of her time. She exemplifies the Dominican ideal: “to contemplate and to give to others the fruits of contemplation.” That’s what I aspire to do in my own life and work. So I’ve been wanting to get to know her more, and learn from her wisdom and example.

L: I speak for all of us when I say we have been so blessed by your book. Through it, we've gone deeper into relationship with our Lord Jesus, His Mother, and the saints who have gone before us. God has certainly used you to speak to our hearts. How can we best pray for you in return? What are your prayer intentions we can lift up?

C: Please keep my family in your prayers, that each of us may do the work God has for us and, ultimately, become saints. I know that sounds a bit audacious (and anyone who knows me knows I have a long way to go!). But the universal call to holiness is exactly that: universal. It’s not just for priests and nuns or some elite caste of professional Catholics. Each of us is called to become a saint, and we can each play a part in transforming the world for Christ. As Catherine of Siena put it, “If you are who you are supposed to be, you will set the world on fire.” I think our world could use more souls on fire for Christ. I’d like to be one of them.


Friday, November 14, 2014

Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale.

This fairy tale has had its share of fire-breathing dragons, damsels in distress, and tangled forests.

And to be honest? It probably will continue to.

But that's okay...“Fairy tales are more than true: not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.” 

Our tale?



Once upon a time we met in Summer 2011 at a church picnic. He fell head over heels. I was dating someone else.
The photographer claims she knew it was coming...



I joined as a chaperone for the mission trip in Spring 2012, no longer in a relationship.
Now I fall head over heels for this incredible spiritual leader.
Who also has all the charm of, well, you know, Prince Charming.


So we work together,


We laugh together.


We serve together.


But life gets messy. Really messy sometimes.


We wonder if God is really calling us to play on the same team.


We ask for a little help from our friends...



A lot of time, tears, grace, and growth. Dragons being beaten. Dark forests being traveled. 


And then one day...


This.



He proposes. I say yes. 


And we live happily ever after.
Well, kind of. Because the goal of marriage isn't to be happy...
It's to be holy.
And to get to Heaven, where we'll be eternally happy.
So we're on this journey together with the hope of a happily ever after.
The end.

Just kidding. It's only the beginning. And I'm beyond grateful to be walking this path with this man whom I admire, respect, and love so deeply. What a gift. What an incredible joy and blessing from above. Thank YOU for your faithful friendship as a reader, for staying with me through the storms and sunshine. Please continue to do so, for I treasure you and love sharing life with you. Pray for us and know that I pray for you.


Life is beautiful. 


"Every person's life is a fairy tale written by God's fingers." -Hans Christian Andersen


[Originally published on Life is Beautiful]

Thursday, November 13, 2014

CYW Book Club {Week 7, Chapter 6}

Ladies, I cannot believe this is our last chapter!! What a gift this book has been! I received the responses from the interview with Colleen and I'm SO excited to share them with you! She is so beautifully authentic and sincere. Stay tuned for that! We'll also have a final discussion on the book, so it's not over yet. But for now, the questions for this week...ponder them, journal them, share them with us. 

Chapter 6: Triumph of the Cross 

Colleen writes about how her esteem for Mary grew gradually, and the more she turned to Mary, the more she felt drawn to loving, serving and imitating her Son, Jesus. In what ways has devotion to Mary led you closer to Christ? In what ways has following Mary’s example helped you grow in virtue? Colleen’s yearning for motherhood was her own cross to carry, but it also made her dependence on God that much stronger. What trials are you most thankful for? How have they deepened your faith? After having read of Colleen’s closeness to six saints, which saints would you like to learn more about, both in reading works and through prayer? 

Catching up or looking back? Here are the rest of the weeks' links:

Introduction/Note to the Reader
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6

Thursday, November 6, 2014

CYW Book Club {Week 6, Chapter 5}

Is it just me or are these weeks flying by?! I was reading our book in the Adoration chapel yesterday afternoon and it brought me to tears yet again. Such a beautiful, inspiring story that makes the saints come alive and the reality of their friendship so powerful. I'm so sad we only have one more chapter! Here are the reflection questions for this week's chapter:

Chapter 5: Into the Darkness 

Blessed Mother Teresa of Calcutta wrote about the overwhelming darkness she experienced, even though her entire life was dedicated to God. Despite her depression, though, she never faltered in her good work. Is this frightening or reassuring? Why? When speaking of her infertility and waiting to know whether she would ever be a mother, Colleen’s mother told her that the waiting itself was her cross to bear. What crosses have you had to bear? Which are you currently bearing? How is God seeing you through? When has God made you wait for something you really wanted? How did the waiting stretch your faith? 

Catching up or looking back? Here are the rest of the weeks' links:

Introduction/Note to the Reader
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6

Thursday, October 30, 2014

CYW Book Club {Week 5, Chapter 4}

You have no idea how much I'm enjoying gathering with you precious ladies each week to discuss this book. Your thoughts and reflections have at times brought me to tears! You are beautiful! I'm so blessed by your sincere, passionate, vulnerable, womanly hearts. Thank you for being a part of this.

And if you're just now joining in? Welcome! The previous chapter posts are all still open for comments and we'd love to hear from you.

Last but not least, did you hear the news?? Author Colleen Carroll Campbell is allowing CYW to interview her for our book club!!!!! I know!!! I'm SO excited! Don't forget to email me your questions and your question may be chosen for the final interview!

Here are the discussion questions for the week:

Chapter 4: A Mother at Heart 

Saint Edith Stein believed that each woman has a maternal spirit. What does that maternal spirit look like in you? Colleen writes about the dark side of a woman’s maternal inclinations, when those inclinations are distorted by sin. These negative traits and habits include nagging, manipulation, domineering behavior and gossip. What are some ways you have seen these weaknesses in yourself? What safeguards can you put in place to curb them? Saint Edith also wrote that “objective work” and daily quiet prayer are twin ways to combat these weaknesses. What are a few concrete ways in which you can apply this doctrine to your own life? 

Fun question: Which book have you re-read the most times in your life?

Catching up or looking back? Here are the rest of the weeks' links:

Introduction/Note to the Reader
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

CYW Book Club: Special Announcement!


Colleen Carroll Campbell, author of our book club book My Sisters The Saints, has agreed to do a short interview for us! How exciting is that??

I'll be submitting the questions to her in the next couple weeks, so please email me with any ideas or questions you have for her and your question might be included! I'm so happy for us to have this opportunity-- it will be like she's joining us for one of our cozy book club meetings!!


Thursday, October 23, 2014

CYW Book Club {Week 4: Chapter 3}

Welcome, ladies! I'm curled up this evening with some peanut butter toast and a cup of milk as I type this before bed. So sorry we're meeting later than usual with the book club, but I didn't forget you! 

I'd love to hear more from those of you reading the book-- or those of you who have already finished it! 

A few weeks ago, I had a girlfriend visit from Michigan and we had a lovely weekend catching up on all that was new in the past year. She's going through a season of trials, including her dad's struggle with dementia. I immediately thought of My Sisters The Saints because I have been overwhelmingly touched, encouraged, and strengthened by the author's story. After K. left, I bought the book online and had it mailed directly to her. She read the whole book in less than a week and wrote me to say how deeply meaningful it was to her and how much she wanted to thank me for introducing such a perfect and timely book to her. I know the Holy Spirit was behind it all, and I pray that He is speaking to you through this book as well. 

Here are the review questions for the week:

Chapter 3: Trust Fall 

Colleen describes accepting a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to work as a speechwriter for the President. But this job couldn’t fill the ache in her soul for marriage. Have you ever felt the call to sacrifice something important to you for something better? How have you seen the faithfulness of God in that sacrifice? Colleen describes the atmosphere surrounding the speechwriting staff as a “boys’ club.” Have you ever felt out of place somewhere that you believed God had called you to be? Write out quotes from the saints or Bible verses that remind you of your value to God. Colleen writes that Saint Faustina seemed to embody the verse, “Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and do not lean on your own understanding (Prov. 3:5).” At the end of this chapter, Colleen realizes that it is not enough to say she trusts in God; she must act as though she does, whether or not she feels it. What’s the difference? Are actions or words more important? Why? 

Catching up or jumping ahead? Here are the chapter links:

Introduction/Note to the Reader
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

The Journey

I loved Grace's thoughts yesterday on pain and grace in our stories! I thought you might enjoy reading some of my story in this interview and how I've learned to surrender to the process and allow the Lord to get to work. He turns messes into messages, trials into triumphs, struggles into strengths. Click the picture below to take you to my interview as well as the stories of other single women living the journey!




Thursday, October 16, 2014

CYW Book Club {Week 3: Chapter 2}

Welcome again, ladies! How was chapter 2? If you haven't joined us yet, you are still so very welcome! Want to catch up on the past few discussions? You can check them out here:

Introduction/Note to the Reader
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6

Here are the discussion questions for this week! Let us know your thoughts and then begin chapter 3 for next time!

Chapter 2: A Child Again 

Saint Thérèse of Lisieux wrote about her “little way” which consisted of small, everyday acts of love. These included befriending a particularly cranky nun and not losing patience with others. What are some specific things you could do to better the lives of those around you, as offerings to God in the “little way?” When Thérèse heard of her father’s passing, her reaction was strangely peaceful. How can you find the good—and God’s will—in bad tidings? Just as Alzheimer’s made Colleen’s father more like a child in his faith, Thérèse also strove for childlike faith in God. Why? What qualities do children possess that are essential to your faith?

Fun question of the week: If you could be friends with any book character or author, who would you choose?

Thursday, October 9, 2014

CYW Book Club {Week 2: Chapter 1}

Alright, ladies! Gather round the table with your books and drinks, it's time for week 2 of our book club. If you haven't joined in yet, jump in with us! We'd love to have more comments and discussion! Even if you aren't reading the book with us, please feel free to share your thoughts on our discussion questions anyway- most of them are answerable even if you haven't read the chapter.

Many thanks to Image Catholic books for their Reading Guide we'll be using for the chapters.

Chapter 1: Party Girl 

In this chapter, Colleen discusses her feelings of emptiness and taking her first steps to “open the door to God.” What was your first step? What could your next step be toward God? In the anecdote featuring her boyfriend, Colleen realizes that their relationship is actually a “placeholder” for something more satisfying. Have you ever had a placeholder in your life where God should have been? Do you have one now that needs to be surrendered to Him? Both Saint Teresa of Ávila and Colleen speak of leading a double life. Neither was living in a conspicuously sinful way, yet they each confessed to the torturous feeling of “living in two worlds.” Do you ever feel as though you’re living in two worlds, caught between cultural norms and your faith? 

And our fun, get-to-know-you question this week: Where is your favorite spot to read?

Time for chapter 2! Until next week, ladies! Happy reading!

Thursday, October 2, 2014

CYW Book Club {Week 1: Introduction/Note to the Reader}

Welcome, ladies, to our book discussion group! I'm so glad you're here! Why don't you pull up a chair...grab a cup of tea, coffee, hot chocolate, or maybe even a glass of wine. We're going to get to know each other these next few weeks so I want you to be comfortable!

This week is simply our introduction to the book club and the book we'll be reading: My Sisters The Saints, by Colleen Carroll Campbell.

Here are the assignments for the week (Oct 2 through Oct 9):

-Read: Note to the Reader and Chapter 1 (Ch. 1 to be discussed after next Thursday's post)

-Questions to ponder: In the Note to the Reader, the author speaks of her "quest to understand the meaning of her feminine identity" in the light of faith and culture. Do you feel that you have an understanding of who you are as a woman or is it difficult to reconcile the many definitions of womanhood that we find in the world today? This book is considered a spiritual memoir, about the author's spiritual journey. Where are you on your spiritual journey? Do you feel stagnant, lonely, confused, or ignited, passionate, joyful? Colleen Carroll Campbell calls the saints her "friends" and "kindred spirits." How do you relate to the saints? Do you see them as lofty, faraway examples or have you come to know them as friends and fellow sojourners?

-Post: Introduce yourself to us and share a few thoughts on your hopes and goals in reading this book as well as any reflections on the questions above. Maybe even let us know your favorite drink to sip while you read!

I'll start...I'm Laura from Ohio. I'm crazy about books, and this fall weather is enticing me even more to curl up with a good read. I've been wanting to read My Sisters The Saints for a long time so I'm thrilled we can read it together. I hope to get to know some of my favorite saints even better and to be reminded more deeply how they can inspire and encourage us even though the circumstances of our lives may be very different. I love that they know what it's like to be a woman who wants to follow Jesus-- and that that transcends time and place. 

I think my understanding of my feminine identity has certainly deepened over the years, but we are constantly bombarded by the world's view of the ideal woman and I'm not unaffected by the temptations to compare, feel less than enough, or desire the superficial beauty so idolized by our culture. I love that women saints can show us a better way, true beauty and joy and grace, while understanding the desires and needs unique to women. I'm definitely a melancholic personality, so I'm always thinking and often focused on my personal growth and spiritual journey. I currently feel a little stagnant in prayer and growth so I hope this new season and this new book can kindle the fire in my soul and bring me ever closer to our good God. When I was younger, I saw the saints as people way above and beyond me spiritually, that I might aspire to their holiness but likely never "achieve" it. Through books and maturity and grace, I now see them more as friends, humans just like us, who surrendered fully to God and allowed His grace and love to transform them. It's less about attaining holiness and more about being fully His and allowing Him to work in and through me. There are several saints I consider my dearest friends, just as close to me or closer than my friends on earth. 

And last but not least, my favorite drink to sip on while I read is a nice, warm mug of Harney and Sons Hot Cinnamon Spice tea...mmmmm....

How about you? Tell us your story! We can't wait to hear from you!

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Announcing...Our Book!

Thank you for your gracious responses to the launching of our CYW Book Club! I'm so excited to build community with you lovely ladies as we read, sip tea, and chat over this book together.

Which book is it, you ask??




Girls, this book is gorgeous, inside and out. I've been wanting to read it for a long time, so when the publicist at Image Catholic Books contacted me, it felt like a grace moment. I believe the saints are such a gift to us from God, and even more specifically women saints who understand both the unique blessings and struggles that come with being a woman! So often we place them on pedestals instead of seeing them as friends. We have more in common with these holy women than we think--they are simply a few steps (or maybe more!) ahead of us on the journey, praying for us and offering their encouragement and friendship.

You can read more about the book here, including stamps of approval on this book from trustworthy Catholic names such as Father Robert Barron, Christopher West, Ralph Martin, and Bishop Charles Chaput,

I know the Holy Spirit will be present in our reading and in our conversations. May our Mother Mary send us many graces from her Son as we begin this time together!

We have a few weeks until we begin (October 2), but you can use this time to look around and find your copy of the title. Buy it, borrow it from a library, share it with a friend and join the club together. If you plan to buy it, you are certainly welcome to shop around your favorite local or online bookstore, but Image Catholic books is releasing it in paperback (lower cost than the hardcover) beginning September 23rd, and you can pre-order it now through their website here.


Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Get Ready for This...You're Gonna Love It.

so true!  excuse me while I go make myself a cup of coffee and get my book ;)

Hello sweet sisters in Christ! September is here and autumn is fast approaching (or perhaps already arrived in some of your states!). Many of you are back to the books, whether you're in high school, college, or perhaps a teacher yourself. Though I'm in the working world, half a dozen of my friends are teachers so I feel the end of summer keenly as they busy themselves in the classroom!

No matter where we find ourselves this season, it's always a time for learning. We never outgrow books, do we? I've treasured books since I first learned to read and continue to have a stack by my bed, on my couch, and on hold for me at the local library! What a great gift it is to read, and even more so when the books we choose help us grow closer to Christ and His Church!

Because of my great love for books, I'm ridiculously, over-the-top excited to be sharing with you something new on the horizon for The Catholic Young Woman. In October, we'll begin our very first CYW Book Club! We'll meet up here each week to read a chapter and discuss it via the comments feature. I'll share my own reflection on the chapter as well as some questions to help you reflect and share your thoughts. I hope we can get to know each other better over the pages as we share our hearts and maybe a cup of tea together.

In a couple weeks, I'll announce the title we'll be reading, so stay tuned!

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Second Week of Advent

Sitting at the kitchen table with the Little Dog on my lap. Homemade spaghetti sauce warming on the stove (thank you, freezer, for giving me fresh food in the winter!). Achingly beautiful Christmas music playing in the background, making me tear up at the slightest swell of instruments.

And I'm thinking about you.

All you wonderful people who visit this site.  (um, and just a little bit about the Christmas cookies in the fridge.)You who welcome me into your home by reading my blog. (okay, I understand if that sounds a little creepy.) Who type comment love or friendly emails here and there, reminding me that my brothers and sisters live all over this big world but are so very beautifully connected.

So I wanted to say hello. And happy Advent.

You know I love this Church season of Advent. This invitation to slow down, seek quiet, trust in waiting, surrender to mystery. It wraps itself around my soul with gentle beckoning.

I responded this year to that call as with other years. I was ready to prepare Him room. I told my women's share group about my goals of finding Christ in the quiet, darkness, fasting, and waiting...just as our Advent program had focused on.

Somehow I pictured myself transformed by fervent prayer, calm solitude, overwhelming peace.

Instead these first two weeks have been more characterized by fervent grumbling, calm despair, and overwhelming uncertainty.

Don't get me wrong. I still love the season. I have my decorations up and my heart lights up when my Christmas tree does. I hosted a cookie swap with a dozen or so girlfriends. I sipped hot chocolate with two of them and crafted Christmas cards. I've absolutely relished a new Advent devotional recommended by a friend (Watch for the Light: Readings for Advent and Christmas).

But amidst all that, I find myself being selfish, discontent, lonely, and discouraged. I play the comparison game. I get frustrated at both jobs. I need a break from people but I get lonely at home. I choose the temporary over the eternal. I whine. I pout. I sin. It's not a pretty sight, soul-friends. And that further discourages me, because this isn't how I wanted my Advent to be. Old memories surface. Unfulfilled desires nudge. It hurts.

I'm not where I want to be. I'm not who I want to be.

Emmanuel. My heart cries out.

I keep learning.

God-Is-With-Us.

Instead of the warmth of Advent wrapping around me, I'm feeling stripped of control and comfort.

It's cold. It's vulnerable. It's painful. It's messy. But hope draws near. Because these are the conditions of the Christmas stable. Of the uncomfortable Christmas journey to Bethlehem.

Messy manger. Messy heart.

I'm finding He chooses both to dwell within.

This Advent is not what I planned. But somehow He's using it. He's making it beautiful before I can see it.

Like Mary, He simply wants me to be open. To be. To look to Him with trust so that He can enter in and be born to the world through me. (From that amazing devotional I mentioned above!)

Maybe I'm not where I want to be or who I want to be. But I know this tender Savior enters into our messes. To transform us into who He wants us to be.

Maybe He's already here.

Emmanuel.

[Originally posted by Laura at Life is Beautiful.]

Monday, June 3, 2013

Giveaway Winner!

I know-- it's shamefully late.

But remember this giveaway?

Well. We have a winner.

And I'm unable to contact them!

Our winner is blogger "ichen," the fourth comment on the giveaway blog post.

If that's you, email me or comment as soon as possible! If we don't hear from you, we may have to draw another winner!

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

When He Beckons

I was feeling very childish and selfish. I was exhausted from the week and the weekend so tonight--ah, tonight I just wanted to stay home. No one but my dog and me. I closed my eyes to the dishes and the paperwork and the clothes strewn about my bedroom floor.

And I had even decided not to go to Mass.

I was getting home late and I knew the Lord would understand that I just needed some time to rest without leaving the house one. more. time.

So I stayed. I lounged on the deck and reflected on life. I blogged about my childishness. I knew my perspective needed an adjustment, to see the "burdens" as the blessings they really were. The gifts of the people and the opportunities that filled my life.

I closed the laptop. I stepped back in the house.

And I felt it.

Strongly.

My Abba.

Beckoning me clearly, deeply in my heart yet without words.

Mass was at 7:45 at a parish in the next town fifteen minutes away. I looked at the clock. It was 7:30.

Simply, calmly, purposefully. I got in my car and I went to meet Him. Because He was calling me. He wanted me. And I wanted Him.

It was as simple as that. Somewhere in that moment, I lost my childishness and became childlike.

I parked at the old country church and hurried to the steps. But at that moment, I heard it. A heartwrenching cry. I saw her bent over, hiding in tears. My heart was tugged and I prayed for the Spirit. Was this why I'd been called here?

I looked at her tear-stained face and put a hand on her shoulder, gently speaking.

Do you want to talk?

So we did. Sweet, precious one. With faith and conflict and discouragement and confusion and strength all blended in her eyes.

Then we went inside, Mass just beginning.

And we received our Lord.

Sweet, precious Jesus. I closed my eyes after Communion and enjoyed this wonderful closeness with Him. This is why I came, Lord. This intoxicating oneness with You. The source of my strength, my All.

But He and I both knew...

I had met Him there by the steps before I even entered the church.

Saturday, March 30, 2013

A [not-so-]Holy Week

I had plans for my Holy Week.

I was going to pray more, reflect more, and "pour myself out on the Lord as Mary Magdalene did" (a striking reflection from my devotion on Monday). It was going to be deeply impactful, let me tell you.

And I was going to blog. Every night. Yep, I had ideas for blog posts for every night of Holy Week.

According to my plans, my Holy Week has been a failure. My personal prayer time has been small, my time for reflection even smaller, and though I feel empty I can't say it's because I've been busy pouring myself out on the Lord.

And since I'm writing this on Holy Saturday and haven't blogged since Monday...there went that idea, too.

Yet as I look back at the week, I realize that I may not have lived my Holy Week the way I wanted to...but I may have lived it in step with Jesus more than I thought.

I wanted to tell you about the Apostles on Palm Sunday. How they were joyful and perhaps a little boastful or prideful as they processed triumphantly through the street. How they wanted to let people know they were with Jesus, one of His friends. Yet a few nights later they would run from Him in confusion and fear.

Instead I lived it. I was excited about Holy Week, chattering away about my love for the Triduum and traditions and this victorious Jesus we serve. Yet how quickly my energy and passion faded as the week got more difficult, as conflicts and crosses popped up. Fear weaseled its way in and I forgot--or chose not to--trust that same Jesus.

I wanted to set aside time to be with Jesus in the Garden, comforting Him, appreciating and imitating His steadfastness.

Instead I found myself in my own agony, feeling darkness pressing in, anxious and distracted and stressed. Yet I found immense comfort in the fact that this Savior was also a suffering Servant who had experienced some of these same emotions (Isaiah 53.)

I planned on attending Holy Thursday Mass with P. and celebrating the Eucharist together.

Instead the night found me rushing around and slipping alone into a pew at my home parish, still stressed and distracted from the unexpected crosses of the week. Yet the reality and beauty of the night penetrated my heart and mind and tears flowed as I followed the procession with Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament and then quietly stayed with Him in the chapel for awhile.

On Good Friday, I wanted to watch the Passion of the Christ and get together with one of my girlfriends from far away who is home for the weekend. I wanted to fast on bread and water and remember Jesus' Sacrifice throughout the day.

Instead I battled sleep deprivation, did the minimum for fasting, and cancelled with my girlfriend. I was frustrated by the busy-ness of my week, the downcast attitude of my heart, and the heartache of imperfection. Yet redemption found its way into the evening as I quietly sat alone in candlelight, reading the Passion narrative in the Gospel of Luke.

My Holy Week was so completely different than I had planned. Several unforeseen circumstances became crosses. I became preoccupied with them and at times overwhelmed by them. I was discouraged that I wasn't praying more, reflecting more, and staying in the present moment with love for my neighbor.

But I was missing the big picture of what Holy Week is all about.

Redemption. A Savior. One who teaches us that victory is found in the cross. That love is a sacrifice and not alway a fuzzy feeling. That sometimes life is blood, sweat, and tears. And that's okay. He still uses that in big ways.

So if your Holy Week didn't feel very holy, take heart. I don't think it did to Jesus, either.

And remember...

The Resurrection is coming, my friends.







Monday, March 25, 2013

The Holiest Week of the Year

I love this week. I just love it. The air is thick with grace and hope and redemption.

It's Holy Week. The holiest week of the Church year.

The only thing that dampened my fervor this morning was looking out the window and seeing two inches of snow covering the ground...in March...the week before the holiday of springtime and growth and new life. Really, Ohio?

That's okay. Even snow has its symbolism. Purity. Cleansing. Melting. And sparkling in the light...

P. has a priest-friend who is an exorcist. When asked about his schedule for Holy Week and exorcisms, he replied that it's a very light schedule. They've found that there's such an abundance of grace and light during this week that evil seems to cower and hide.

Our God is a God of power and light and victory...this is indeed a week to raise your expectations and open wide your heart to His grace and miracles.

It's also a week to immerse yourself in the events of the last week that Jesus spent on earth before His death. It's a time to enter into the Scriptures and walk with Jesus, to draw so close to Him that we can't help but hear His laughter with the Apostles at the Last Supper, to feel Him shake with anguish in the garden, to see His tears mingle with drops of blood and sweat as He falls yet again under the weight of the cross. And yes. To reverently touch those empty burial clothes and kneel before Him risen as He calls your name so softly and lovingly.

Will you join me this week as we walk with Him? Can we stay beside Him or will we too run away as the disciples did? Will we get too busy in our schedules and routines to take the time to enter into His Passion and Death?

Feel His grace around you. Hear His invitation...Come.

Are you ready? Let's go.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Valentine's Day Giveaway!

Happy Valentine's Day, dear friends! I promised you a giveway, and I like to keep my promises!

Today, in honor of that love holiday, we are giving away the book How to Find Your Soulmate Without Losing Your Soul, by Catholic authors/speakers Jason and Crystalina Evert.

What must you do to enter this fabulous giveaway? Simply comment on this post with a way that you are either receiving God's love today or sharing it with others. Please make sure you have a valid email address that we can use to contact you if you win. That's it, so here we go! Have fun!

(If you are a winner, we will contact you by email and ask for a mailing address. If you are under 18, please ask your parent's permission to enter this giveaway.)

Would you like to read my Valentine's Day story? Click here.



Tuesday, February 12, 2013

That Love Holiday

In just a few days, that holiday will be here. You know. The one about chocolates and flowers and romance.

Or is that what it's about?

I've always had mixed feelings about Valentine's Day. I really get into all the lace and hearts and anything pink. It's very feminine and festive, you know?

Yet sometimes I'm bothered by the secular celebration of the holiday. The way lust and emotions are focused on rather than sacrificial love and commitment. The way single men and women are left in the dust to struggle with loneliness, heartache, or jealousy. And let's not forget about the commercialism! I heard somewhere recently that the average American couple spend $126 on each other for Valentine's Day! Are you serious?!

Despite how costly Valentine's Day can be for that average American couple, I'm convinced

that we've cheapened love.

Because tonight when I look up at the crucifix above my bed, I see the truest sign of love I've ever known. And that gift of love didn't cost the Man a cent.

But it did cost His life.

No one has greater love than this, to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. (John 15:13)

Ladies, my prayer for you this Valentine's Day is that you know and experience Christ's love for you in a deeply personal way this year. I cannot emphasize enough that He knows you so deeply and intimately and He loves you in a way you've never been loved before, a way you can't begin to comprehend. A way that fills you and completes you and satisfies you.

Take a moment to allow that to sink in. Even if you know it. Because every single one of us can't reflect on that truth enough.

And after we receive that love and allow it to fill our hearts to overflowing...He does ask one thing of us.

Love one another as I love you. (John 15:12)

I know some of you have husbands and boyfriends and fiancees this week. I know some of you are aching for a special man in your life--and oh, how I understand, sweet sisters! I've been there! I know some of you have taken the Lord as your spouse in religious life--or will someday. But every one of us--no matter our vocation--is called to receive the love of our God and to share it with others.

Maybe that means buying a bouquet of flowers for a friend who just went through a breakup. Maybe that means sending a card in the mail to an eldery shut-in from your parish. Maybe that means sitting in an Adoration chapel just letting God love on you. Maybe that means treating your boyfriend with purity, as a precious child of God. Maybe that means holding back the complaint on the tip of your tongue when your husband gets home late from work.

That love holiday is coming up this week. Let's show the world what real love looks like--and point them to the One who first showed us.

[And while we're celebrating love and Valentine's Day and all that...why don't you stop by Catholic Young Woman on February 14th and sign up for our very first book giveaway?!]