I wrote on my Facebook page a couple weeks ago, that I'd become one of "those Catholics." I've gotten to the point where Mass is the highlight of my week. And even today as I write this, on a Wednesday, I'm looking forward to Mass next Sunday. I've never been one to hate going to Church, but I definitely wasn't jumping up and down before. I went because I knew it was right, and it was pleasing to God. Now though, I truly want -- need -- to go to see and receive Jesus.
Amidst all the craziness, stress, and to-do lists of my life (of which there are uncountably many), Mass is always there, always constant. Some people may say it's boring because the same thing happens every week. Well, that same thing is the transubstantiation of ordinary bread into Jesus Christ. How in the world can that be boring? When I was at a Steubenville Youth Conference last summer, one of the Brothers (his name was Father John) told us this quote: "Father John, Church is not boring. I am." Basically, Jesus is not boring. We are if we think He is boring.
I feel that one of the reasons I've had this greater devotion to Mass and the Eucharist in the past, oh, four weeks, is because little by little, I'm abandoning myself more and more to Jesus. If I've given him all or part of myself, where else but at Mass will I feel most comfortable? It's time when I know I can pray and worship Him. And I love and desire the Divine Gift of Himself that is present at every Mass.
The things of this world are always unpredictable. People are unpredictable, jobs are unpredictable. Life is unstable on earth. And we get hurt because of that; we put our trust in the wrong person or in the wrong things, and they let us down. I've been let down before...I've let myself down. With God, though, nothing is unpredictable, but is Perfect. His Love is Perfect and Entire. How much better is this?
What kind of Love is writing my story till the end with Mercy’s pen? Only You.
What kind of king would choose to wear a crown that bleeds and scars, to win my heart?
What kind of Love tells me I’m the reason He can’t stay inside the grave?
-Natalie Grant, Alive-
At Mass, we witness the pinnacle of Christ's Love -- His offering of His Body to us, to be joined completely with us. And the Grace we receive truly makes us want to live more faithful lives in general. I started a daily rosary on April 29th, and then decided to continue that daily rosary throughout the month of May (so far, I haven't missed a day, even when it's the last thing I do before bed!) I have a feeling though that this will continue. And it's because of Jesus that I have the desire to do this in the first place. I'm finding myself content in His arms.
I feel His mercy, but I also feel even more unworthy as a sinner. I know that even if I'm not in a state of mortal sin, there is so much that I can do better in my life for Jesus. Realizing that I am content where He has me gives me more incentive and help to avoid those temptations to sin. It makes me more aware of my actions. I don't want to live a life of mediocrity. I don't want to live a life of normality. Instead, I want to live a life of contentment. And if that means looking forward to Mass, so be it.
I feel His mercy, but I also feel even more unworthy as a sinner. I know that even if I'm not in a state of mortal sin, there is so much that I can do better in my life for Jesus. Realizing that I am content where He has me gives me more incentive and help to avoid those temptations to sin. It makes me more aware of my actions. I don't want to live a life of mediocrity. I don't want to live a life of normality. Instead, I want to live a life of contentment. And if that means looking forward to Mass, so be it.





